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Episode 10 – I’m Your Huckleberry

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Episode 10 - I'm Your Huckleberry
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For our tenth episode extravaganza, we discuss Val Kilmer’s memoir I’m Your Huckleberry (and other parts of the Kilmer corpus, including his poetry, art, and music), the movie Tombstone and related trivia, David’s Old Western cocktail, Frank Stallone, fake memoirs, and much, much more.

The deleted scene from Tombstone mentioned in the episode:

And our outro song is a Val Kilmer original:

Episode 9 – The Best American Podcasts

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Episode 9 - The Best American Podcasts
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In Episode 9, we discuss podcasts: whether they’re essays, our favorites, and how they relate to creative nonfiction. Also we drink the best beer in the world, possibly start yet another podcast, and Elena coins the term “bike diapers.”

The podcasts we discuss (click for links): Wind of Change, Book Fight!, and Mystery Show.

Episode libation: Westvleteren 12.

We didn’t pick a song, but I guess it has to be this:

Episode 8 — Best American Essays 2003, Part 2

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Episode 8 -- Best American Essays 2003, Part 2
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This week, in part 2 of our Best American Essays 2003 episode, we discuss Adam Gopnik’s “Bumping Into Mr. Ravioli,” André Aciman’s “Lavender,” as well as the 2003 Billboard charts, imaginary friends, bong-hit essays, and more. Our outro song is also from 2003:

Episode 7 – Best American Essays 2003, Part 1

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Episode 7 – Best American Essays 2003, Part 1
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This week’s episode is a five-guest, five-essay, four-microphone, two-part show we recorded (mostly) outside on David & Elena’s patio. In Part 1, your co-hosts welcome regular guests David, Bonnie, and Arlo to discuss selections from Best American Essays 2003, a volume Elena happened upon in her neighborhood little free library. We talk about Atul Gawande’s essay “The Learning Curve,” Ian Frazier’s “Researchers Say” (not online, unfortunately)–both first published in the New Yorker–and the Rachel Cohen essay “Lost Cities,” originally from Threepenny Review. Also, David makes a 2003-specific cocktail, we discuss where we were in 2003, and more.

Episode 6 – J.D. Daniels, “Letter From Majorca”

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Episode 6 – J.D. Daniels, “Letter From Majorca”
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In Episode 6, we discuss J.D. Daniels’ essay “Letter from Majorca,” from Best American Essays 2013 (first published here at the Paris Review). Also the first essays we ever wrote, a literary cocktail from old San Francisco, and this outro song by Curtis Eller:

Episode 5 – Daum, Didion, and the Leaving NYC Essay

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Episode 5 – Daum, Didion, and the Leaving NYC Essay
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In Episode 5, we discuss recent essay-adjacent events including a major loss in the literary world, Meghan Daum’s essay about leaving NYC during quarantine, and the tradition of essays about leaving New York, including Joan Didion, Eula Biss, and others.

Essays discussed:

Claire Fallon, “Please Stop Writing ‘Why I Left New York’ Pandemic Essays

Meghan Daum, “I Left New York for Greener Pastures–and a Puppy

Joan Didion, “Goodbye to All That

Eula Biss, “Goodbye to All That

And Elena’s outro song is Randy Newman’s “Louisiana 1927”:

Episode 4 – Joy & Death in the Cascadia Subduction Zone

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Episode 4 – Joy & Death in the Cascadia Subduction Zone
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In this episode, we discuss Zadie Smith’s essay “Joy,” the Mount Eerie song “Real Death,” the state of our brains in pandemic isolation, Elvis, Capote, Cardi B, Arizona’s kinship with Australia, and much, much more. Halfway through, David, our resident bartender, serves us his latest literary cocktail, the Cascadian Subduction Zone, a high-proof, face-heating concoction that enlivens the conversation.

Smith’s essay is available here: “Joy”

Mount Eerie’s “Real Death”:

Episode 3 – Ander Monson

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Episode 3 – Ander Monson
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In Episode 3, we welcome the essayist, professor, and creative community-builder Ander Monson to talk about his two new books, the movie Tron, @marchxness, Tucson, the Memoirizer, and much more.

Read more about Ander Monson at his website: www.otherelectricities.com, and buy his new books at Powell’s.

Essays referenced: Lorrie Moore, “Experiencing the Coronavirus Epidemic as a Kind of Zombie Apocalypse

Episode 2 – What Isn’t an Essay?

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Episode 2 – What Isn’t an Essay?
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In Episode 2, special guests Arlo, Bonnie, and David help us answer the question: What isn’t a literary essay? Also featuring a literary cocktail, our first Blind Item, a profane joke about bears, and more.

Episode 1 – March Badness final

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Episode 1 – March Badness final
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On the first episode of I’ll Find Myself When I’m Dead, we welcome our former MFA student, Zoe Bossiere, to discuss her matchup with Elena in the finals of March Badness, the annual essay tournament hosted by Megan Campbell and Ander Monson – http://marchxness.com/#/badness-final/ – as well as why we like the tournament format, the essay form, her promotional strategy, velvet Elvises, why we’re making a podcast, and more.