Month: October 2020

S2 E7 – Flash! (Part 2)

I'll Find Myself When I'm Dead
I'll Find Myself When I'm Dead
S2 E7 - Flash! (Part 2)

In this episode, we continue the flash conversation from last week, along with our resident barkeep (not “mixologist”) David. He makes us an essayistic shot, and we all discuss Sex and the City, our shared Italian heritage, the flash equivalents of the drama world, David’s Instagram animal searches, where we’re all absconding for the rest of the pandemic, and, eventually, even more flash essays: Bernard Cooper’s “Live Wire,” and a bunch that Elena put together for a lightning round.

Episode links:

Bernard Cooper’s “Live Wire”:

Sei Shonagon’s “Pillow Book” (the whole thing, because I couldn’t find the essay Elena picked):

Ann Carson’s “On Homo Sapiens,” from Short Talks:

S2 E6 – Flash! (Part 1)

I'll Find Myself When I'm Dead
I'll Find Myself When I'm Dead
S2 E6 - Flash! (Part 1)

In Episode 6, we discuss very short essays, AKA “Flash,” a term and genre we have mixed feelings about. First we try to figure out what flash means, and then we discuss two (possible) examples: Jamaica Kincaid’s “Girl” and Scott Latta’s “On Sequencing.” Also: near-death experiences, we continue to demonstrate our ignorance of Canadian geography, Glenn Gould’s appearance in two different versions of Joy Williams’ essay “Hawk,” Squirrel burgers, chicken grease coffee, which Muppets we’d be, and more.

Episode links:

The article about rigging Apple Podcast rankings:

Listener Andrew Forbes’ real website: 

Justin’s Hobart series from 2013, “A Phan’s Notes”: 

Rose Metal Press’ Best of Brevity anthology, co-edited by our friend and former guest Zoë Bossiere: 

Jamaica Kincaid’s “Girl”: 

Scott Latta’s “On Sequencing”: 

S2 E5 – The Krause Essay Prize (with Jess Kibler)

I'll Find Myself When I'm Dead
I'll Find Myself When I'm Dead
S2 E5 - The Krause Essay Prize (with Jess Kibler)

In Episode 5, we welcome Jess Kibler to the show to discuss the Krause Essay Prize, a $10K award given to the best essay of the year, chosen by students in Iowa’s Nonfiction Writing Program.  Jess is currently getting her MFA at the NWP, and is a former student of Elena’s at OSU. We discuss the Krause Award winner for 2020, Keum Suk Gendry-Kim’s GRASS, as well as why and how the judges chose it, Jess’ path to becoming an essayist, other recent nominees (including Elena’s), and a lightning round about Jess’ home state of Oregon.

Episode links:

Follow Jess on Twitter: 

Some of Jess’ writing from when she worked at Bitch Media: 

The Krause Essay Prize, with info on current & past nominees: 

The publisher’s page for this year’s winner, Keum Suk Gendry-Kim’s GRASS: 
Gendry-Kim’s website:

S2 E4 – Essays on Film

I'll Find Myself When I'm Dead
I'll Find Myself When I'm Dead
S2 E4 - Essays on Film

In Episode 4, we welcome our spouses, David and Bonnie, back to the podcast to talk about movies that might be essays. Also: a very delayed mailbag, a story about three-thousand-dollar Pennsylvania whiskey, Arlo makes a cameo, we all do impromptu Werner Herzog impersonations, penguin suicide, essayistic film moves, and (much) more.

Links to some things we mention:

(In response to the question about queer & trans essayists): T Fleischmann’s books: Time is the Thing a Body Moves Through: Syzygy, Beauty: Alex Marzano-Lesnevich’s website, with links to their essays/books: Alex’s Harper’s essay, “Body Language”:  Berry Grass’ website: Sung Yim: Jaquira Diaz: Sandy Allen: Stephanie Burt: Wayne Koestenbaum: Tommy Pico: Jennifer Boylan: Eileen Myles: Michelle Tea:

Denry’s latest episode art:

Commenter Andrew Forbes’ website, which Justin totally botched his plug for:

The 1993 Bill Murray movie Groundhog Day:

Dawson City: Frozen Time, the documentary about lost films Justin almost suggested for this episode:

The Act of Killing, the documentary about Indonesian death-squad leaders Elena almost picked for this episode:

Abstract, the Netflix documentary series about design & art:

The Writer, a very short & odd 6-minute film/trailer we watched by accident while looking for The Rider:

Grizzly Man, the Herzog documentary Justin picked:

The Rider, the Chloé Zhao film Elena picked:

Justin looking like a serial killer on video: